Tuesday, October 18, 2011

The Distance between Desire & Action

As mentioned in my previous post I am technically supposed to write about VAD detox, and I will write it *Promise*. But right now I had to share with my readers what I believe is an insight! Here it goes. At lunch time earlier this afternoon, my sister and I started watching this movie called "Kinky Boots". (hmm..funny name for a movie I thought). Moving along,the movie was about a traditional Northampton shoemaker who was struggling to keep his family business going, until an unsusal event of fate gets him to seek help from a  drag queen who changes things around! Overall, I quite enjoyed the movie, but what I enjoyed most about the movie was that it got me thinking about why often times in life, we find ourselves yearning to do something but seldom do we let our desires to transcend into actions? How often have you caught yourself saying  in idle times, in classes or anyother place and time,"I could do this and this and this, and this is how it would work out, and tell yourself how your plan would benefit yourself and/or other(s)". Have you noticed how when in that moment there is a sudden burst of excitement, this adrenaline rush, this vigor, this sense of aggressiveness, a sort of "To hell with the world, I will block everything out and just go for it". I know I have been there done that.

However, in a matter of seconds, minutes, or even days that spark, that idea, that desire is packed up and either stored in the deep corners of our mind, or some other desire replaces it. Either way, in the end we are the prod owners of bags of unfulfilled aspirations, desires, and ambitions that could have materialised but now that thought of "If I didn't do it then how can I do it now?" eats us up! Sticky place to be in, eh! So I thought what is that missing ingredient? I am asking you, my beloved reader what do you thing is the missing piece between your desire(s) and transforming them into action(s)???

In the mean time, let me share with you my findings (by means of experience, introspection, and analysis of inspirational movies like Kinky Boots, & Calender Girls). A part of me has always aspired to revolutionarize systems, ideas, practices, stereotypes, and attitudes. More concrete example of that would be to bring about changes, transform, and even contribute towards understanding suicide spectrum behaviors. Everytime I'd surf the internet, read an article, or fill out applications for graduate schools, and most recently jobs, I would feel the sting of my self imposed sense of incapacitation. I was irritated and somewhere deep down conscious of "What if I failed?,What if I am wasting my time?, What if my plan doesn't work out?, What if people who review my work think my work is shallow or my plans are so weak, What if..what if..what if???" Until one night while browsing  the internet I decided to update my LinkedIn profile. I reviewed other profiles, said to myself this SNS will be for the professional side of me, hence I will have professional connections on this site. Next,  I realised it would benefit me to be a member of a few groups, so I did that too. Until I was hit by this idea: WAIT A MINUTE! Here is a cause I am passionate about, why not Create a Group? And so I created the "PPSP" Group on LinkedIn.

Another step towards transforming my desire to make a difference to reality was blogging! This blog was created in 2007 but I never followed up on it! Another packed and stored idea. So I pulled it out of the attic and said to myself "Let me just start! What have I to lose? Not my life, not my dignity, not any money, not any education". And start I did.  If you were really reading this article closely you would have figured I did all this activity in a span of 2-3 weeks! Now its a dangerous place to be in because I have to keep this going! I am aware of things that could go wrong, but what I am also aware of is that I am thoroughly enjoying myself, I am keeping myself occupied, I have started to view things around me with a fresh pair of eyes, and perspective, I wake up every morning with a sense of purpose, I have hope, I have the determination.

Take home points!
1. Sometimes things do not happen when we want them to because that is not the right time. But when the time is right, so will things fall into place. SO DONT GET DISCOURAGED!
2. STOP assuming, thinking, and presuming, START BELIEVING! believing in yourself, in your ideas, your plans. START a conversation or statement with I BELIEVE!!! Trust me IT WORKS!
3. Ask yourself if you have any such desire, it could be one or many. If you have one, pull it out of that mind attic and get to it NOW!!! If there are many, pen them down, review what you thought about when you got these desires, ideas, what were your objectives, does it need any modification, if yes, do it!!! ACT NOW.
4. NEVER LEAVE A BUSINIESS UNFINISHED!!! We are all guilty of this at some point or the other in our lives! So starting now make it a practice a conscious decision that if you take a task up, a business venture, an idea, a plan, a promise, make sure YOU DELIVER!
5. Know that no action of yours is in vain!! Develop a habit to CONTRIBUTE! Contribute by words, actions, getting an education, being there for your family! IT COULD BE ANYTHING!
6. If after all this you find yourself losing your sense of direction READ THIS ARTICLE AGAIN to remind yourself of a purpose!!!

In the end know that YOU MATTER!!

Monday, October 17, 2011

Virtual Addiction Disorder!

It started out like any other monday morning for me as it has been for the past 3 months. First, checking for new status updates on Facebook, clicking the "Like" bottons for some, "Commenting" on others, "Poke" back friends who have been routinely poking me (Its like being in a Poke relationship), reviewing comments or likes of friends on any of my recent (or four year old) activity, checking out new uploaded pictures of connections on fb, and the drill continues. Once that is tackled, then there is Twitter!!! 140 words limitation, where one can upload, and share pictures using yfrog, or twitter deck, and maybe some other stuff (who cares?), tweet (basically post {fb}) anything you want to including the description of how awful someones fart is and possibly determine the meal reasponsible for the same as long as it fits within a 140 words (you get the point!!). and then there is LinkedIn! Another networking site, expect for the more professional side of us, which btw if you can successfully fill out, you are all set for any CV/Resume, and Statement of Purpose, given the amount work expended into it! Yes there are some of the Gen Ys that take it more seriously than others!! Then there are the underdoge, BBM, MMS, Whatsapp, TM (text messaging) etc. This virtual drill is set on repeat mode pretty much for the entire day/night, and week/year, well atleast until we have another virtual site that sweeps our attention away. Be warned that this sweeping would happen not because one social networking site (SNS) is better than the other, it purely stems from GEN Y's need for novelty, and the need to replenish the ever so lacklustre sense of boredom! However, its seldom portrayed to be so. Infact, GEN Y decorates the reasons as security/privacy issues or the lack thereof.
I could continue breaking down the composition of this virtual monstrocity but that would imply insulting the common sensical abilities of the readers, so I shall cut to the chase!! How virtual are our lives??? Do we view it as a boon or a curse? Have we paused and assessed the areas of our lives possibly impacted? I suspect NOT! Seems too much work, and frivolrous. But I beg to differ.Following is the list of things that leading a Virual life is doing to us!
1. Depression - It is true!!! (Not empirically determined) but can vouch that the cases of depreesed people atleast the young have plummeted. Finding out person X got their second job while you barely can get the first one, person Z has taken 3 vacations each more extravagent than the other while all you can barely afford is a smartphone, person M has a bigger stone in their engagement ring than your do, person E does not repeat one outfit in their pics and takes scenic pictures, while you stress and decide not to post pictures because it was in the same sweater in which you took a picture one year ago, Person J has more connections than you and to make it worse 4 people deleted you off their friends list that same day, PHEW!!! Just as depression has no laws, so does the impact of leading a virtual life on our real lives!
2. Fakness - The simple joys of sitting with a friend face to face seeing their expressions, gestures and touch is sadly replaced by vegetative words, and stiff emoticons where you can Laugh Out Loud (LOL) or Laugh My/Your A** Off (LM/YAO) without a sound and working a single jaw muscle, or for that matter stick words b/t asterisks to *Amlify* their effect. Fake! Fake!Fake! Monotoneous!
3. Mundane - I can bet on my life that over a period of time even the most fanatic of social networker gets BORED!!!
4. Distractor - You could have the most important presentation at 6 in the morning for which you haven't started work yet buttttt you met a long lost friend on fb chat, or a recent crush who of alll days and nights decided to ping you that night and you HAVE to cash in on the opportunity!! Or you could be at work, where btw social sites are banned yet you access the sites sneakily even when your boss walks over to your cubicle and catches you in the act! Which brings me to my next point!
5. Social Awkwardness - The frequency and probability of getting into a socially awkward moment is huge!!!! When your boss catches you, when you delete a connection without informing them (I wouldn't know how notifying them would be any less awkward) and then meeting them at a social gathering or hallway of the university, untagging them or yourself from pictures (often an earthshattering experience), you post/tweet/upload pics from your outing last night with a bunch of friends when you should have been with Person O for a drive! I mean its unbelievable how awkward it can get!
6. Severes Friendships - The irony of the situation, the rate of lost or broken friendships are alot more than we would like, because your best friend now has a new best friend and you now are the odd ball!!
7. WORST - You have increasing numbers of family members wanting to connect with you. Can't deny/accept, this just ensures you a one way ticket to ass whooping world!!
I am certain the readers have their own profound thoughts to share and are well aware of the situation! If not DUDE(TTE) YOU NEED SERIOUS HELP!!!! But hold on, there are some boons too.
1. Free Marketing and Publicity - New business venture, tattoo parlor, garage sale, auction of a painting, new version for the iphone, music, movies, new book, new blog (guilty), new members only group on LinkedIn (guilty again), SNS are free, easy, and awesome!!!!
2. More Memories - Pictures, albums, vidoes all are perfect ways to create memories but BEWARE its a double edged sword.
3. Comparative Analysis - I looked like Sarah Jessica Parker in 2008, come 2011 I look like a bloated toad from Shrek 2!! Key words weight loss, personal appearence, ya da ya da ya da.
4. Long Distance - The world is getting smaller, so you can keep in touch with a friend you met in Timbaktoo!!!
Take home point! How infested is your life with the SNS bug??? More importantly how is it impacting your real life? Are you more energized after meandering through the virtual roadways , or more aggitated, irritable, frustrated thereafter? I have been introspecting and let me tell you there's alot more to it than these mere questions! Its a reflection of the way of life we are leading and where the future generations headed. Once thats done, the question is how then is one to revamp this lifestyle? We are what I call the Virtually Addicted Lot!!! Detox and Rehabilitations is essential! But I shall leave that for my next post! Until then chew on this fodder!

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Feelings!!

What are these feelings we feel inside?
its like being torn from everyside.
How does a soul as pure as gold,
go on to become so impure?
Is this just another relation gone sour?
Infested with adulteries, damned to eternity
is there no such concept of fraternity?
Days turn to weeks, and weeks to years
but we have got to believe there is an existent cure.
When words fail, and hearts ache
the hope for remission is put to shame.
But often is said the herat of life is good
If that is the case then shouldn't it all be mould?
How is a soul to ever cure
That which has been ripped, abused,and framed into feeling so impure?
How can we purge that soul?
How can we make it all go?
Guess that's one thing we'll never know.
The child within wants the soul to flow
but how will it actually glow?
We tell ourselves " It really not how it was meant to be,
I was doing so great until I hit the reef".
We blank out, fade out, wear out
but despite all that often we are able to bail out.
This bail out however is just a farce,
because by now we already fell like shards of glass.
Frail is that soul like the mimosa is to touch
Could we not abuse it so much.
By now of one thing I am certain and that is we are all alone
In our struggles to struggle and in all honestly
it is no joke.
What are these feelings we feel inside
O what are these feelings we feel inside?

In these arms!

In these arms you make believe
In these arms you sustain that belief
In these arms you keep from heat
In these arms you keep from freeze
In these arms you cradle the happy feet
In these arms you strangle to defeat
In these arms you cry to sleep
In these arms you find that peace
In these arms you want to lie
In these arms you want to die
In these arms you caress that face
In these arms you cut to the chase
In these arms you will lose thy self
In these arms you will find thy world.....

Definition of Suicide!

Suicide can be defined "as a concrete act of self inflicting physical harm onto oneself in the pursuit of either terminating or releasing unbearable psychic pain wherein the motive to ending ones own life may or may not be the primary objective ". - Shuchira Jani

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Its Called Suicide!

Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.